Well I guess I’ll see you next lifetime
Baby we’ll be butterflies
I guess I’ll see you next lifetime
That sounds so divine

I guess I’ll see you next lifetime
No hard feelings
I guess I’ll see you next lifetime
I’m gonna be there

Peace

From my new and developed me, you will realise that as well as my hair changing i have changed my spirit, my mind and my world.
Here is some poetry i wrote earlier today while i was reflecting………..

THE EPISODES OF LIFE
We compete with ourselves and all those around
We sometimes forget that it is not about winning
Life is about competing the race without sin.
I am not perfect, neither are the shoes that I wear,
The air that I breath is flowing through every vein.
I am not perfect from the way that I talk to the way that this pen writes on this paper.
The words which I write are the words which i keep inside
I separate them form my right mind and feet.
I keep them contained in a cylinder underneath the floor for all the world to see.

I have shivers down my spine,
Can you feel them too?
I feel as if I am not me
I am in a world where the world keeps turning
Am I moving with the times?
No everything is moving ahead of me
Cant keep up,
Everyone is racing ahead of me
Im strugglin, Im trying to catch my breath,
I cant catch my breath, I cant see ahead of me,
Who is there?

I write, I write from the heart
I try not to tread on a forbidden path,
of the open mind and the closed ear.
I choose to feel the presence of my angel.
The angel that once lived and walked alone the way with me,
To a place where it was silent without a souund.
She said a word, I couldnt catch the sound
But in my ear I could feel a vibration which stimulated my brain.
I wish I heard what she said
Could it have been motivation?
Or could it have been said to destroy my nation?
My nation of little lives, floating, walking, getting on with day to day lives.
But never stop to think, “Is this the life?”
The life where the world is a mile away,
The hour seems not to stay but only to run away.

These are words which I wrote while I was in my mode of meditation.

“i cant take no more!” i keep telling myself but offically today i want to retire. you’re probably thinking retire from what? well retire from being me. me as in myself and me as in my well being. but that is not possible becuase you will always be you till well i dont know when. you can change, as in retire. i dont think im making sense but im confused with life and everything that is why i want to retire?
im going to take a time out to think how can i retire and i’ll get back to you on that one!

“WATCH THIS SPACE!”

hey ya’ll actually jus so i know that somene really cares bout me n this site please will you be knid and send me a comment. it dont matter who you are. well ma weekend has been AMAZING thank you Fuz! i saw dwele he is the man. all i got to say is wow and this weekend has been life a breather. i have been able to find the me the tee and ive found ma some kinda……. if you listen to Dwele y’all will know what i mean. i dont know what to say really except here are some words of wisdom. dont waste you life dwelling on the whatifs in life. if you want somehting go for it and hey dont beafraid to be yourself because people love you more when you are foreal and not fake you know what i mean!
i know what i want to be and what i want to be you should take a time out and think about that one!
peace xxxx

so it was the day of results yesterday. i was scared i cried ont he way 2 skool n s i dont no if i was crying coz i was scared of seeing the results or crying coz i was scared of seeing my friends. im jus weird like that. i worry about myself sometimes. so u no i told all ma peeps that they had no permission to look, talk, touch or even breath near me because the only person that i wanted by my side was ma ipod and music. so there i was jammin ma tunes n lookin for ma envelope…………………………..damn it took too long so still searching…………… i hear people screaming my name i grab the envelop and run out the hall while im outside im lookin through what ive achieved. i cant believe ma eyes………I PASSED but anyway moving on………..end of that one!
I’ve been up to nothing lately im living in sad days i want to have my happy days again they used to be soo good *tears of joy*
ive made a resolution! i want to make more friends i mean i want to make loads of friends coz the way i love people is like the way i love music, but i still love music more!
did i tell you i went to the Common concert? so if u no ur music you’ll no who Common is. if you dont then go to www.common-music.com and listen to a few track. so i went and i say him. its was lyk the best ever. i jus felt like WOW! i remember the day as if it was yesterday! a big shout out and thank you 2 ma Fuzmyster u no who u are ma brother!
dont know what else to say except take care ma sweeet will cum back later and yeah!

love u always lil mama

Well…… Im glad to let you know that i am back from my very long holiday in the mother land of Zimbabwe. While i was there i met some really great people who i think in a way they will contribute to my life and make me a better person than i already am. it was a shame though leaving them behind becuase i have realised that everyone is different and the difference that they may have will affect your life and you’ll not realise it!
i had a very refreshng holiday i might say. the whole experiecne made me reasile who i am and all the things i kept inside i was able to release them. i now i feel confident. i can show the world who the real tee is without being afraid or waiting for someone else to do that for me. You should try it some time. actually sit down and as yourself the question, “who am i” and “who do people see me as”. think about it. wouldnt it be great if you could change places with someone else and be able to see yourself from the outside? but we cant do that. you need to do it yourself through your mind soul and spirit.

well lil mama is off now so peace n holla atcha gurl lil mama!

What a wonderful day it has been today hey? Wrting on my blog i feel like Carrie from Sex and the City becuase im always talking about life issues.
Today children, its another story. Why are people complicated. This friend of mine, its hard to expalin but he has been seeing these two girls and they have been doing everything that couple do but they have never been official or gone out! You ask the boy why havent you asked the girl out, make it official, become a couple and all he says is that he is waiting for the right woman. Thats cool you know, its allowed to wait whats the rush? But all i have to say is dont wait too long because it will end up gone. Its like with food if you love the meal so much but you want to keep it until you are ready to eat it but at the end of the day the food will go past its sell by date. Its funny isnt it!
What i have realised is that when you have nothing to do with yourself you spend most of your time thinking about life and all the things you may have done or may have not done. Try it one day it really works. I spend my time thinking about my wants and my needs but do I thing about other? And the answer is yea I do I think bout other, not all the time but most of the time. I’m a good person right?
I have nothing more to say. My bordom has really settled im my braint that I just dont know what to do with myself anymore.

Well….. what a week this has been. It is now time to get ready for the HOLIDAY! How great is that? At the moment i am feeling very tired b ut its probably because im annoyed because some people just dont know how to respect other people’s hard work. My eyes feel like saying sleepy bye bye but i have to stay awake becuase today i woke up a bit too late.
Right now im listening to a tune by A Tribe Called Quest and Faith Evans is singin to me,
Don’t worry we gon make it
I really know how it feels to be, stressed out, stressed out
When you’re face to face with your adversity
I really know how it feels to be, stressed out, stressed out
We’re gonna make this thing work out eventually

Hey thats all i got to say

lil mama
i feel peckish!